In May 2015 I co-hosted the 60th edition of the Eurovision Song Contest, the biggest entertainment show on the planet. I loved every moment of it. I felt like I was exactly where I belonged and that I was spreading a message of universal love to over 10 000 people in the room and 250 million viewers around the world. I was at the top of my career and yet, there was only one thing I was craving for : to quit TV.

During my 14 years in front of the camera I oftentimes didn’t feel aligned with my values and I was missing purpose. The problem was that I neither knew, which values I would feel aligned with, nor how I could make my life more meaningful. On top of that I was suffering from an imposture syndrom for years, which was reinforced by way too high expectations of myself. When I was on stage, I always tried to be one sentence ahead in my head to make sure that everything would go perfectly as planned. But that only disconnected me from the present moment, while my inner judge simultaneously commented the mediocrity of my performance. My own way of functioning exhausted me, but I felt completely imprisoned by it !

When I finally quit working on TV, my body literally gave up on me : a whole series of auto-immune diseases forced me to stay in bed for about two years. That brought up a new problem that I was unable to solve : the discrepancy between the sparkling, joyful and strong image of my TV personality and my reality as sick, vulnerable and extinct mother of two. In fact, I didn’t identify myself with any of these two versions of me. So, who was I in the end ?

If I wasn’t able to identify myself anymore with what I was doing for a living and if I stopped « doing » all together, what would be left of me ? What was my essence ? And how could I express it in an authentic way in order to always be aligned ? I was convinced that finding the answer to these questions would help me reignite my inner spark , reconstruct myself and heal.

I spent the following six years observing myself and studying the different levels of my unconscious mind. I did a lot of self-experimentation and worked with experts from different fields to understand what kept me from being myself, what constituted myself and eventually how I could express myself and take up my place in the world the way I wanted to.

Today I have transformed my personal experience and the result of all my research into a methodology in order to enable all of you to find your essence and to express in freely and authentically.